I've decided it's time to start back up with this one. I have another blog as well, thats more centered around relationships, and overcoming one's fears. More reality and less frills. If there's one thing I'm learning this summer, it's that you need a bit of both to maintain balance and sanity! I've let both of these fall by the wayside as life becomes busy and/or turbulent, and I always end up scolding myself in the end, because I need these sorts of check-points, to keep my mind balanced and focused. So PLEASE, if you read this, and enjoy any of my entries and want to see more from me, please let me know. It will help keep me on task.

The past week or so I've been going through a bit of a funk, and it's been difficult to get inspired and stay inspired. I think almost everyones worst fear is some serious tragedy befalling them- like your entire family drowning in a tsunami or being in flight and witnessing the roof of the plane blow off (seriously happened!) or some other disaster completely out of your control. Or maybe I'm just a paranoid freak? Either way, I'm finally realizing that there are only a handful of things in this world we can control, and that is what I'm trying to spend my time focusing on from here on out- at least 95% of the time. So here, I will post all my dreams, aspirations, and all the things that keep life looking bright and shiny to me. I'll start off with a few things that I am grateful for, so I can always remember, in my selfish, pitiful moments, that I still have a pretty awesome life:

1) My mom, a woman who you'd swear was born with not one, but two hearts and an extra set of eyes for her to cry all her proud, happy tears. A strong-willed, hard-headed, ambitious, brave lady, who has worked tirelessly to fill many shoes over the years. I'd be a different person without her.

2) My sister, a girl wise beyond both our years', also with a big heart, and an even bigger smile. Best and most loyal friend I'll ever have.

3) A heart that feels it all. Though this can also be a downright curse at times, and I have to stay aware of how my heart behaves so it doesn't reach a toxic level of foolishness, (too many Feist references, coincidentally- not that that's a problem) I'm grateful for my sensitivity. I hope I always stay that way.

Love,
Sea